The art of letting go…
The art of letting go….
It was Sunday morning. After a terrible Saturday I have to wake up early to pack my things and move out of my studio. As I was trying to pack everything that I have accumulated for the past 4 months I can’t imagine I have bought so many things already. Before I left I had one last look at my old studio. I can’t imagine how fast time flies, I can’t believe I’ve already been here for four months.
I always have trouble in parting. Most of the time I don’t want to let go. It may be a thing, a memory, a relationship or even a job. Being away from home taught me the important lesson of the art of letting go.
I’m on a crossroad right now. At the end of this month I will find out if I’m going to stay for good or leave for good. The part of me who is missing home so much badly wants to go back and reclaim all that was mine and start from where I left off. The part of me who wants to be here badly wants to stay. Being alone and trying to be happy with it is something that I want to master.
I have no idea what will happen but it’s all beyond me now. I have no idea what’s going on but I couldn’t care less. I have to let go and just believe that everything will happen for my best interest.
Leaving the studio that I had for the last four months also felt so bad. That place witnessed my pain and sorrow as I was trying to cope up of being far away. That place also witnessed my laughter as I call home. That place also witnessed the transition in me when I started feeling comfortable that I’m actually alone and it also witnessed the new friendships that were starting bloom. The studio became my home, my refuge and my haven but I have to let go. With a heavy heart I closed the door but the details of that studio and all it’s memories will remain.
And soon I also have to let go of a new friendship that bloomed so nicely. It was like I was back with my old girlfriends… Talking endlessly on the phone, sharing some secrets, dreaming of a vacation and talking about everything and anything even until wee hours but as I’ve said we have to learn the art of letting go…
October 15th, 2006 at 3:29 am
yAH ive experienced nh dis also looking bck through d yirs ive made 2 many mistakes having 2 fyt 4 d wrong love…gues ive muv on na ….many has bin said and done…many can nver be put back again,,,wana say sori also 2 u and archie 4 wat ive done…i guess ive got my karma na…he he have 2 face it all..well maybe ive found her na pero panibgong challenges n nman…sana xa n nga..planning 2 go 2 davao 2 mit her probably nxt yir…again sori sana ull reply 2 ds…hirs my new no…09283561676 tnks again..GRACEL