Samut Sari
August 23rd, 2009 by jho-hedacanAng dami kong gustong isulat, kailangang isulat na ngayon bago pa mawala sa isip ko.
Seth
Inggit ako, uwi sya today. I know I’ve just been home a few months ago pero if I can I want to go home every quarter hehehhehehe. But thinking about it, di pa ako handang umuwi for good. I still have plans na di pa tapos, some unfinished business dito at sa pinas. Siguro it will come, yung feeling that I’m ready to go back but now I just want to “VISIT” every now and then.
Been good
I’ve been so good this week. Followed the rules by the book and sure benefitted from it. Last night for the first time, I felt it on my clothes. The shirt that I love doesn’t stick to my skin anymore, there’s a ” room” to breath hehehhehe. I”m definitely going to continue till I achieve what I want and yesterday didn’t exist =) I had two slices of cake, 2 samosa, 1 cookie, fries and eat all you can gambas agogo. When I hit the scale today, it’s not so bad at all so no more cheating for me…
Guilty
Nitong mga nakaraang araw at linggo, masyado akong nakafocus sa sarili ko. Ano kailangan ko, pano ko mapapabuti ang sitwasyon at buhay ko. Masyadong occupied about “ME” na nakalimutan ko na ung ibang tao sa paligid ko. Nakikita ko at nakakausap mga kapamilya ko at kaibigan ko pero not really sure what’s going on in there or I didn’t bother at all. Nakalimutan ko, kailangan din pla nila ako.
Reflection
Kahapon umattend ako ng children’s bday party. Sa totoo lang super ako nagenjoy. Nakakalungkot lang kasi the kids were trying to talk to me pero konti lang naiintindihan ko. AT ang bibilis pang magsalita =) they were so cute, so full of energy and so fun. Napagisip tuloy ako, anong klaseng anak magkakaroon ako when finally I have my own. Anong klaseng magulang ako magiging… Excited ako what the future holds for me. Sana meron din libro on how to live your life, i know it will be less fun but if it can make you do things and know the result maybe i will try it, just maybe… May nakita ako don, kids of interracial. Ang cute nung black baby boy kaso ayaw sumama sa akin. I was picturing myself, hahhahaaha… Well wala nman masamang magday dream paminsan-minsan noh… pero one thing I realized, it’s not yet for me. Maybe I want it but not now…
Now I have to start moving my ass and do some home cleaning. I might swim later or go biking, depends on the mood.. ONe thing for sure, I feel so relaxed and happy this weekend…